| I learned to fly, but never came back to see the other eggs hatch... |
[Jun. 21st, 2009|09:40 pm] |
I hatched in the glorious summer grew wings and I learned to fly, but never came back to see the other eggs hatch. What a shame to come back and see that the nest was destroyed in the winter and only shells remained.
I am a soldier of the McRmy. No matter where I go I always carry that label with me proudly. That was where it all began. I finally found I wasn't alone and the 5 men I worshiped so much had brought me more than music that saved my life, but a family. That summer I joined I was reborn. My first steps and thoughts and words were there and everyone was stood around holding my hand letting me know I could do it. Closer than my actual family I felt like I had finally found somewhere where I belonged.
It started with the small things like just staying in chit chat section making friends to being encouraged to check out the fanfictions where I found a passion for stories. Enchanting. I liked to read before then, but nothing kept my attention more and I would sit up till 5 am just reading. One day after reading something Brandi wrote I felt the need to write too. Her words made me so happy in her story I realized I just wanted to make other people as happy as I felt then. Everyone was soo supportive of my stories.
It was then during a bad day of writers block a sweet girl named amber recruited me to the rp section where I discovered a new guilty pleasure. Me and her had so many roleplays active that the moderater Tiff named me and Amber the roleplay queen and princess.
I had been so happy. So happy I found these people I even fell in love with a girl from there and found out I was Bi. She not only talked to me for a whole YEAR, but finally she came down to see me here in Chicago. It ended badly and sadly enough that was when I truely stopped going to my home. I stopped because I didn't want to see her there and as I drifted farther away I fell so comfortable here with the people I loved so much I didn't bother coming back to see them all. Didn't bother to tell them how much I had missed them. How I still told everybody my home was the McRmy and I have never been prouder of a place.
When I came back today I read around and realized every post written was for 2008. Finally I found a girls post explaining we needed to save the mcrmy because the Mods were going to shut it down and my heart crumbled. This place was my home. These members were more my sisters and brothers than the ones that came out of my mothers womb. I had shared my dreams and soul with these people and here they were all gone. I continued reading all these reasons why this girl said it couldn't be destroyed and I only felt more one with her in her pain. 72 reasons. It was such a long post and I can see her desperate heated motivation to do whatever it took to keep her home running.
How could I let her down? I was one of the children gone astray leaving our home to rubble. I now sit in mourning not for a webpage, but for a home. A place where I took my first steps, said my first words, and shared my first thoughts. I mourn for the family I left behind and will never see again. The McRmy wasn't the stupid street team that needed area codes and such. It was the fans who dedicated their time to loving the boys on one webpage and each other. For the longest time the mcr website was linked to this mcrmy.
That was the true mcrmy. Where everyone there knew each other and loved each other. Where we never had a stupid thought and were encouraged to be who we were and develop the talents and dreams we had long laying latent in us.
Before MCR I was into motorhead and Misfits and I was into hardcore punk and even though people called me a pussy for falling for mcr and the many other bands I discovered when I came there, I didn't care because I had people who liked these bands as well and told me how awesome I was for liking them and that those people who mock you just for liking good bands weren't true friends. The McRmy were the people who never tried to make me change, but encouraged the changes I myself wanted to make.
In my heart I will always belong to the McRmy. I will always be a soldier, to fight the good fight and keep fighting the good fight.
I stand tall because of them and truly know who I am and have grown as a person and I will Never forget that.
I love all of you Rmy members
and know I will always savor the days we spent together
starting in the summer of rebirth. |
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| ITS SUMMER AND IM ON FOR EVERYSINGLE DAY OF IT! |
[Jun. 21st, 2009|11:06 am] |
YOU GUYS!
It's summer break here. Which is awesome because I will be on EVERYDAY because I have no life. I really don't care because I enjoy internet and you guys more than having a life. Basically I have been on everyday, but I have been a total noob just reading fanfictions to catch up with all I missed and I began one of my own. Which leads to my next question CAN SOMEBODY BE MY BETA?
I seriously need one and the story I'm doing I have been planning out since middle of school year and now its summer and I'm starting to write it. Its basically a highschool AU with some awesome characters and even more awesome twists.
I really hope you guys will like it because I am putting so much thought and work into this one. I hope one of my besties who always comment and I only post my journals for will do the honors.
In other news. I got my hair cut Friday and look bitchin and along with that I ordered super awesome fangs that will be here soon enough and then I will never take them out because I am a bit of a vamp freak.
Not a sparkly like twilight kinda thing. More of Dracula with Gary and Winnona in it. That vampire freak.
Plus with fangs I will be able to spend all my ADD power tongueing and licking my fangs in my mouth which is an epic win for me.
God I really missed you guys and before I used to have nothing to say but really I come on here and every thought comes right on out.
Its fantastic. I feel like I have true friends who care for once which makes me more than happy to share myself.
Speaking of Myself, My birthday happens to be in 2 days.
My dad is buying me a Teal Fender strat. Its going to be uhmaze. |
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| Woah been forever much? |
[Apr. 9th, 2009|09:27 am] |
Oh my bob guys! Can you believe I actually lost my password to this account. I haven't spoken with you people in ages. I miss every single one of you guys. Also I miss much of the wonderful fics that used to be around. I am going to be a reading whore over the next few months, but on my own time. I need to catch up with you guys as well. Anyways I believe a fic is in order. I need to put my writing skills back to work before I lose them. I kinda was imagining something with vampires. Or something equally epic, but not gayly written like underworld or twilight. Sorry, but really this generation lacks real imagination. You guys on LJ have way better writing then most of those in hollywood and such.
So life lately has been good. Um almost done with another year of school. I really am going to need summer break. Its always during the summer I have time to be a bum and stay inside the whole time and talking to you guys. Yes that is a tad pathetic, but the whole 'hot outside' is really not my thing. I actually like the weather now because its chilly and gray and moist.
Also I'm single again. Lonely loser. I really should feel bad that I kinda don't attract people, but I kinda am to wrapped up in all my geeky hobbies that I don't think I would even have time for a relationship. Sad huh? I rather read boysecks then be out on an actual date. Yeah my parents knew something wasn't right with me. Though on an upper note my dad saw my ex boyfriend the other day and his face broke out in a horrible rash and now I don't feel so bad that we are over. Haha.
Also this is the last year my brother will be in school so that means next year we will have less money to waist on him and much more to spend on meh! Yay! I'm far from spoiled honestly. I've been wearing the same hand me down tops for ages. Though I through out all the pants so my parents had no choice but to buy me and assortment of rainbow skinny jeans. I now have red, yellow, lime green, aqua, and purple. then reg denim ones. Like Ahhhhh isn't that fab!?
Anyways without LJ I've doubled my rp and well to be honest I've roleplayed so much this past year my brain just kinda doesn't want to do it anymore for a while. Too much of a good thing can spoil it. So I'm probs gonna drop my accounts and start on a full blown novel to post for you guys to love. My goal is to one day be as good as emma (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) woebetidesweets ).Anything that comes from her mind is genious! Obvs.
Anyways today so far has started well. I spent all night talking to my best friend Brian so I'm like passing out now all over my comp. He is how I found my password. He asked me to look through my email to find an old thing he sent me since I never delete anything and I went and found it. Huzzah! *flails*. So here is the plan. I get tons of monster and chug it down and stay up for babysitting and wait for the deliverers to show up with our new recliner. Um also I'm off to go to mcr fic finder to find this one shot I actually dreamt about last night that I haven't read in sooooo long. so anyways gimme a shout out telling me how you guys are. I missed you guys extremely!
-NerdyMcmajorSexciPantz
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[Feb. 6th, 2009|05:55 pm] |
Sometimes this is all it takes to change my day around.
We really should have these in every girls bathroom at school
and well everywhere all. 8D
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| here is the scoop |
[Dec. 7th, 2008|08:32 pm] |
SO BIG NEWS
I have a boyfriend.
He is in a band.
The name is 'Oceans are graves'
type it into google and you will find their band page.
They are getting signed by a major label! big deal.
me and my best friend made up n are kewl again and christmas break is almost here.
I got a new phone so I can make calls again and im not so cut off from the world.
Over all shit is good.
I have been out drinking a lot lately
which isnt good but there seems to be A LOT of parties around this time
of year. that and spring. |
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| to pass the time by |
[Nov. 19th, 2008|05:19 pm] |
Random sharing moment
Favorite smells: Vanilla, Coffee, After it rains, my moms cooking, sex/sweat, saliva after his dries (dont ask), and my brothers cologne.
Favorite colors: Green, Orange, Black
Favorite tastes: blue rasberry candy, pistachio ice cream, Kool Mile cigarretes, french vanilla coffee, monster, My mom cooking, my dad's baking
Fears: Cheese, getting an incurable STD
Favorite sounds: when a car drives by fast, my cats purring, the noise when you open a pepsi, the sound of keyboards clicking, a babie's sneeze, my little brother's laugh.
Favorite Celebrity: Gerard Way
Top three Favorite Bands: The Used, My Chemical Romance, Rise Against
Favorite tv shows: House M.D, Weeds, Dexter, South Park, and spongebob. |
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| A is for amy who fell down the stairs, B is for Basil assaulted by bears |
[Nov. 18th, 2008|06:26 pm] |
um im making this quick
on and off fights with best friend
gauged my own ears by myself
failing algebra II
getting new laptop
holiday breaks are coming up
soon i will sit down n write my fan fics
i am tired
want a boyfriend (lol)
am watching House
and I was hoping you guys could link me to some good fic challenge communities
oh and I have noticed how some of you guys on here have been having a hard time
This hurts me because you guys are all my angels and close friends
and it makes me hurt to see you guys hurt
just know I am always here to talk to and I love you all! ^_^ |
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| checking in. Read and comment if you care bout me |
[Nov. 5th, 2008|10:00 pm] |
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Hey guys I swear I am making the effort to get on here as much as possible. My school life just makes it Impossible.
Anyways, today was one of my better days.
Even though I never do my homework I noticed in my classes I am passing!
Here is a quick over all of my day
-went to school
- friends bought me a million bajillion cookies at lunch
- i had no homework really
- got the earliest bus home
- got home to empty house so i got to blast my music as loud as I wanted
- had chicken ramen
- went to my grandmas house for my sisters bday
- got ice cream and cake
- smoked down a pack of cigs and shot the shit with my cousin
- didnt have to do chores
- in bed with laptop before 9.
I know nothing exciting by seriously it was a fairly good day to me.
I also noticed my productivity is way up lately
I mean being productive isn't just having energy since i find days when i am wide awake so
I just read boysecks or rp.
But i mean you need to be energized and motivated which I have had a lot of.
Saturday especially
I got my chores done
went got my hair cut
went out with friends
came home cleaned my room
typed up half a song fic for jealousmess
then I drew some pictures
actually did homework
did laundry before even going to bed at a normal hour
like seriously that motivation is usually never there.
this weekend i am not sure if I will be on much.
Friday I see the acadamy is most likely.
Saturday we are renting a hotel room and me and heater and hat tea are going to do a little acid
sunday we may go see midnight live showing of rocky horror picture show
and before that we will go laser tagging.
so busy weekend.
Its heathers birfday so we need to make it special!!!
which its funny coz everybody seems to have birthdays this month.
Like bambi her bday is tommorow
I dont know where they expect me to get all this cash for presents
I dont exactly have a job because I am lazy and cant find one
but yeah I am doing okay today and just wanted to share
also
in school we are finally learnign about sex and vaginas
It is SO awkward
and sadly my teacher doesnt know what she is talking about so she is making things up that I have to correct her on and then people look at me like im a weirdo and some kind of sex expert.
which come on.
I may not be having it but i am a slashy lucre writer.
I KNOW my sex parts
>.< 8D
how is your guys weeks?
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| K is for kate who got struck by an axe |
[Oct. 25th, 2008|11:44 am] |
So Yesterday I woke up and it was dark out and I thought 'wow it must be early I have tons of time before school' which apparently I was wrong because I only had 20 minutes to get ready which ten minutes later I notice a clock and nearly crapped myself.
So in ten minutes I got my shit and got to the bus but grabbed my converse and almost landed myself in detention.
Answer me this.
If your school allows you to wear any shoe you want as long as they are a solid color
and they allow you to wear converse low tops
why the fuck is a big deal mine are high tops?
That just means there is more black to the shoe.
Jebus Christ!
Anyways bambi and me were hanging out and her boyfriend showed randomly up at our school and delivered her roses to the office and even brought a guitar and was going to sing to her.
They didn't let him, but it was sweet.
So now I kind of want a man. Though I'm the worst person to date. I don't do the whole 'call you every night' crap.
Anyways a girl from book club who is in crutches asked me to read one of her fictions and it was so bad I wanted to cry.
Now I realize why I am always on here. The majority of the fics on here actually DON'T suck.
I would of told the girl from the get go no, because plainly reading and BETA'ing a story that is not even typed but written blows especially since it was just vampire kisses and twilight combined [which both books suck] I nearly died.
She is lucky she is handicapped.
Oh and Weekend finally is here!
*Arm thrust*
I just want to become very anti social and curl up into a ball in front of the computer and not leave it.
I missed Internet way much and just being on here has put me in a WAYYYYY better place.
I have no life. Like the episode of southpark "Make love not warcraft”
' This person has spent the past few year playing non stop not taking any breaks'
' what does this mean?'
' We are truly dealing with somebody who has.... No life'
' How can you kill that which has no life?'
So tell me what is up with you people!
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| Evil shots o doom |
[Oct. 23rd, 2008|03:05 pm] |
So I went to get my shots so my school would let me back in and you wont believe what happened! I get there and right after I get my shot I start feeling this burning pain and then I go unconcious and apparantly what had happened was I had a seizure while I was unconcious. The minute I came to I was dizzy and sick and throwing up and freaking out.
So basically I had a bad reaction to the shot I was kicked out of school to get.
Seriously this is so my luck.
Anyways Im back in school and have MOUNTAINS of homework which Im still ignoring
so who wants to chat? |
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| Guess whos back! Back again. Katie's back. Tell a friend. |
[Oct. 20th, 2008|01:08 pm] |
Okay So I am officially back.
Huzzah!
See what had happened was I joined volleyball
and I didn't realize in highschool if you join a sport it means you no longer are allowed a life.
D8!!!!!
But now that I've decided I am done with volleyball I am going to be on and just skip the rest of my practices.
So here is a quick update.
As of last Thursday I was kicked out of school. So I cant go back until Wednesday.
So I have a nice little vacation I guess to go on here and start reading and raiding the frerard fics. and other amazing my chem fics.
I Effing missed having written porn! my life was at a low.
Seriously I don't know how I will live if I lose internet.
I have been working on fics though my work has been very scattered
I just keep going from one story to the other so yeah my posting may take a while but I can promise before christmas my story will be up for your viewing.
Well first chapter.
I really want you people to like it which is why I am taking so long
because with my last fic where gee finds all these poems in his locker
I would sit down and type a chapter in 4 hours because it was just a way to keep my
creativity flowing and for me to just write, but it was kind of sucky because I
didnt make it to its fullest potential.
Anyways I am back just letting you know
and I will be randomly commenting everybodies journals since
you people I havent talked to in forever. |
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| BLOCKAGE |
[Sep. 12th, 2008|11:37 pm] |
So I hit major writers block meaning I need music suggestions.
See I have been writing and throwing everything away because I will be loving it until I get a new sense of inspiration and
I have something that is even better. anyways just letting you people I haven't forgotten you.
I will say now that Yes I have been very busy. This year I am doing a lot at my school. I am
on the volley ball team, I am in like 5 clubs, tuesday I am trying out to be in the school play
and also I have to do good with my grades. Luckily for you guys I also have NO friends this year
meaning when I have free days its not usually going to friends. Just you amazing peeps.
Anyways its been about a month and a half since I read a boysecks fic. I feel like im going out of my fucking mind so all night I need to get a bit of writing and reading in. though I am lonely and need somebody to chat ith so please comment me. |
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| I am so effing excited |
[Sep. 1st, 2008|04:58 pm] |
GUYS I AM GETTING SO EXCITED ABOUT THE NEW FIC I AM DOING!
I NEED INSPIRATION THOUGH.SEND ME SOME OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS! |
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| Update on life. |
[Aug. 24th, 2008|02:00 pm] |
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Update on life.
I just got back into my artistic sense of life again.
Ever since I started dating Deena I realized I stopped writing as much and my urges to draw were at a zero.
My creativity literally left me. It isn't her fault. I just spent so much time with her, and she was so plain that I
didn't have anything really to inspire me.
I am dating somebody new now. She is pretty and smart and funny. Though I am not sure if we will last.
She seems to always be so reluctant to kiss me or do anything physical. I just am not sure how to read that.
Also I found the most marvelous book. Hugh Laurie ,one of my heros, has a book called 'The Gun Seller'. It is so amazing.
I made many people just read the first page and now everyone is begging to borrow it.
I read all the time in school.
OH YES! School. I transferred like I said I was going to. My new school is okay, but there is nothing special about it.
I really can't fit in since I am the minority there and already being picked on >.<. This year our lockers are big enough for us to fit in them again.
More trouble for me. Anyway, I joined volley ball and my parents now are making me do homework so I can stay on the team. First week of school and I had to do homework on a Saturday. I NEVER DO MY HOMEWORK. This is like some sick twisted alternate reality and I am being drowned in it.
I will not be on nearly enough until volley ball ends which that will be December.
I do know I had readers for an ending story and people interested in a new story I was coming out with.
The vampire fic has had a delay. You see I was co-writing it with an rp buddy in one of the communities I am in and since my character broke up with hers she refuses to talk to me out of character or do the fic with me so now I have to do a lot more on my own.
Good news is I have been working quite a bit on it and decided that many people were right. My stories were nothing great.
I have been writing just to get rid of writers block and I haven't been putting in the time or work that some of my stories deserve.
This Vampire fic will be the first real piece of work I will present to you.
Here is an update on my looney family some of you people have to hear the weird shit that goes on because then it will make you feel slightly better about your own family.
First off, My sister decided to torture my cat and his leg had swollen up and we almost had to put him down but he is okay.
Secondly my crack whore cousin who is 16 took here 9 and 7 year old sister out without telling people, jacked her uncles car and crashed it into a fire truck. Her sisters are in the hospital all banged up and she doesn't have a scratch on her and her mom isn't going to punish her for almost killing her sisters.
So anyways that is all I can think of to fire off at you for now, but I will have more for you guys soon. |
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| Painted red, sweet arm calligraphy! [4/?] |
[Jul. 24th, 2008|03:26 am] |
Title: Painted red, sweet arm calligraphy! [4/?]
Author:</a></b></a></a></b></a>boogymanprodigy
Pairing: FeeXGee
Rating: Soft R
Summary: Gerard is a pretty unpopular student who is obsessed with writing. One day he finds a poem on his his locker door and makes it his job to find the anonymous writer.
Disclaimer: Pure work of fiction!
Warning: Self Mutilation, Swearing, 'Fag Drags'
Authors Note: So, my BETA finally got back to me with breaking news of she couldn't BETA for me. I am so frustrated that I am not waiting any longer since this is just a filler so I can get the big stuff up so this is UNBETA'd. I swear If I get a comment saying I need a BETA I may smack you because I have one. Deal with it because you know I love you guys! 8P
Prologue!
The dark goes away! Just open your eyes!
Hold on (part 1)
hold on (part 2)
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| sick oh noes |
[Jul. 7th, 2008|08:45 am] |
Hey guys I am really really sick!
I had a cold before, but it got really bad.
Yesterday I couldn't even stand up and I couldn't keep anything down.
I couldn't even keep water down.
So my mom kept forcing me to drink water so I wouldn't die of dehydration and then I would puke after 5 minutes of drinking it.
Seriously pissed me off.
anyways I am gonna try to update my fic soooooon
but i really havnt had energy to do anything. |
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